I had a crazy week with lots of shoots and a trip to Dresden and Leipzig included, meaning I slept all by myself, all night, non-interrupted with no toddler sitting on my face when waking up (and that’s for a whole night, I swear). It was great, and at the same time I felt very lonely and sad. Being a mom really is quite a weird thing to be honest. I won’t go into detail on this today though.
Being away for almost 48 hours, I was attached to my camera and iPhone, snapping photos all day, sucking up all the impressions and using my relative freedom to see and do as much as I could, besides the job I did for a client there. I spammed my instagram followers with photos of the cities, my beautiful airbnb apartment and everything else I saw and found to be interesting (or not). God damn, who thought I would get so excited about such a relatively small trip?! Life changes, every day. Haha.
I have been dipping deep into my hard drives over the course of the week, cleaned up my desktop and folders (part of my procrastination of working on what I really need to work on), found a trillion beautiful yet unpublished photos and plan to post a few things shortly. I am very annoyed my blog seems to only consist of life latelys lately, and my main goal for the weeks to come is to fill it more with real projects I’ve shot (and I have!), real camera photography and also a few more text-based posts that have been waiting unfinished in the pipe for months ähm, weeks.
Easter has been very calm, we spent the evenings with friends and good home-cooked food and spent the days in the sunshine not doing much but enjoying being together.
2014 has been a rough one on me and my little family so far and we are trying very hard to convince karma to be on our side again in the future. Never did I realize to value health and relative stability and security as much as I should have. I guess I am just getting old (soon to be 30, oh my!), but things do need to be a bit in order to insure the flow. This might sound quite dramatic and it’s not, but a lot of stuff happening around me has kept me worrying for weeks and though there has been tons of relief besides a lot of worries, my heart beats a bit faster these days because I’ve been stressing over things way too much. Just a reminder for myself to start yoga again (like, next week?), relax and breathe deep. (And sleep. Yes.)
All photos: Carolin Weinkopf via iPhone